Sometimes the best intentions aren't met with the greatest of enthusiasm

Dianna mentioned in her blog that when we first started dating I would write all the time. Looking back, I did write all the time. At times it was sublime how everything just melded together and then came the times of total suckage.

So I got to thinking about all those abandoned notebooks collecting dust either on the bookshelf or taking up gross amounts of space in a long ago forgotten drawer. I've filled these notebooks and journals with little snippets here, poems there, and the start of many conversations that could eventually be pulled together and somehow made into a best selling novel. I've always had this secret ambition of being the next David Sedaris, obviously female, but I could never get myself to that point of writing. I could never realize the concept of grabbing those thoughts and somehow weaving them through page after page of anecdotal humor. I couldn't get past the thoughts in my head being funny only to me. Self-sabotage reared it's ugly head time and time again, I suppose. what made me leave the writing behind? I didn't replace it with anything, I just stopped.

I'm not promising to write everyday, I wouldn't want to break it within the first 48 hours. I will promise to use this forum as a bouncing board, so to speak, of past writings. If I'm able to spew out new material through this process, so be it.

i forgot about updating about the wedding...

well, the wedding kicked ass. laughter, crying, nervousness, dancing and of course many drinks consumed. here's a picture. enjoy.

i suppose i should do something with this...

i've become addicted to myspace. in the last two days i have reconnected with a few people from high school. i haven't decided yet if it's a good thing or not. while in high school i was surrounded by a huge group of people and when i graduated i only kept two friends out of all the others. in the end you find who your true friends are.

that being said, it feels all weird to talk to friends i haven't seen or talked to in almost ten years. god, ten years! how could so much change in ten years? nikki is married with a little boy and expecting a girl in two months. both kelly and heather are married; no children yet. and just hearing about so many other kids is so bizarre.

if i keep up with myspace i guess i really have no reason for attending the reunion next may. not that i would anyways...

ta-da, i'm all squeaky clean and new...

i had some extra time on my hands and figured i would finish what i started a year ago. i managed to spiff this baby up by adding more people and some other interests i have.

so, have a look around and try not to leave rings on the table from your drinks.

sometimes i wonder if people think i'm retarded...or maybe just slow. just because i dont respond with the greatest of enthusiasm doesnt mean i dont understand what you're saying. it just means that A. i dont care, or B i have lost all attention about what you're yamering on and on about.

i'm still waiting to hear from Patrick. I emailed him again last night and am waiting for a reply. all this waiting is making my think i didnt get in. which will make for one angry sara.

in other news this jackass matt i work with dumped noodles down the sink at work and now it's completely clogged. after yelling at him, the next day he dumps chunky tomato soup down the drain. what the hell is up with that shit?

well, i'm off. i'm gonna go take a nice long bike ride.

i'm just sitting here sipping on gin and juice...

laid back.

actually, it's seagram's wild berries wine cooler. today i acted all spring-summer like and grilled some brats and now i'm drinking wine coolers. my night is complete.

my mom bought a car today. the contour finally died on the way home and she bought a blazer over the phone in like, 15 minutes. it was awesome. looks like i'll be cruising around in a suv type vehicle. now it'll be easier to move my shit back to the city until i'm officially in the city.

to my adoring fans...

i am so bad at posting. i could come up with a gajillion excuses but i have only one -laziness.

that girl kate, from lost is so butch. is she really dating a man?

my loverly dianna bought me a kitchen aid 5qt stand mixer. i love it! it's so red and pretty. did i mention that i love it? I DO!

what else is going on...

i have to go bridesmaid dress shopping on sunday with melissa, my soon to be sister-in-law. the wedding isnt until december but she SUPER ORGANIZED AND WANTS EVERYTHING NOW! it's just crazy. she is totally prepared for the wedding, i'm pretty sure the invitations are ready to be mailed. i suppose that means i need to plan a bridal shower, knowing her she already has three different dates picked out.

ok, so working with my dad is winding down. he really doesnt have anything planned. which makes it a perfect time to move back to the city but i'm "contracted" to work at mikasa until the end of august. which i really don't want to.

say hello to my little flap...

i thought i would join the craze and try and get stitches. everyone wants to be like mace. too bad it wasn't a deep enough slice. if it wasn't on an angle it would so have needed stitches. now it's just a slightly deep slice with a god aweful flap of skin; which is really nasty.